beautiful intentions

2008-09-09T03:45:00.000+08:00

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I WONT BE BLOGGING HERE ANYMORE.

bang cock

2008-07-28T00:02:00.003+08:00

my super duper 73563879426 mths late bangkok photos.

thats all.

lazy bum

2008-07-27T15:21:00.001+08:00

ya la ya la i know im lazy la can. pple here alot of things to do one you know. hahahahaha.
okok. so im finally gonna update my dying blog or rather dead blog after much bugging from pple.
photo filled entry. less words more action.

The before party preparations.
Lollipops !! and tibits !
Not for the faint hearted.
Behind the Scene pple. lol.
The reigning king and queen of siglap ! hahahah
Prizes !! slash made by Bernard =D
BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY !!
mins before the party starts
Mister DJ

Chief Judge Daddy

Vietnamese waitress Mummy

Iron Chef Brother

Yours truely.

Ballerina Dancer Sister
Japanese Geisha future sister in law
Cheerleader
French Maid & Contractor
School Girl
Policewomen , Detective and Jap sch girl
Class Photo with principal.
Angry Principal.
Kong Fu Couple.
Sercurity Guard and IJ gal affair ! lol.
Me and bernard. hahahah =D
Underage drinking. hahaha
CHEERS !!
disco lighting.
Mum and Dad hit the dance floor.
Games !
Cheezel throwing game.
Supper at HK cafe siglap.
=D

guess what

2008-07-08T04:11:00.000+08:00

BANGKOK AND HOUSE PARTY PHOTOS COMING UP NEXT !! STAY TUNED !!=D

* sorry too many photos already. and too busy to update my blog *

2008-07-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

i apologise for not updating my blog for some time.

alot of things has been happening recently.

i'll be back soon again.

seasons of love

2008-06-24T01:59:00.000+08:00

Happy 2nd Month baby ! <3

loving you more each day ! xD

updates soon ! bangkok photos coming up next ! hehe.

anyways here's a video that i thought was wow !

ENJOY !

bon voyage

2008-06-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

im gonna miss you baby ! muacks ! xoxo.
CIAO BELLAS ! SEE YA SOON
MMMMUACKS !
<3

all i want is you.

2008-06-09T16:16:00.004+08:00

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, let the cold winds blow

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

All i want is you by barry louis polisar its the intro song to the tv show Pushing Daisies on channel 5.

enjoy.

one is all you ever need

2008-06-06T04:32:00.000+08:00

in this world there's no place i'd rather be
than with you by my side
looking into your eyes , i wanna tell you
that i cant hold this love inside alone
but just the two of us would do
'
i have a love so true
till as long as we can
because your all i need to fall into
cause your all that matters to me

waffles ice cream

2008-06-05T04:12:00.000+08:00

homemade waffle with vanilla ice cream, fresh peach and chocolate syrup.

yum.

recover well miss kristie chanel koo ! <3

playmates

2008-06-03T01:34:00.000+08:00

pokey dokey

2008-05-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Meatwater anyone ? its a drink that has the flavours of yr regular food such as peking duck and cheeseburger !

peking duck and tandoori chicken !

italian sausage and cheese burger !

Fish and chips and Beef Jerky !

eeeeeeeeew ~ !!!!! ? i thought so too. hahaha. Well at least its not like blended kinda ? dinnerinabottle.com <----- check it out.

anyways .. ever wonder what paris hilton , britney spears and lindsay lohan will look like when they are old ? wonder no more.

super random post really. anyways .. the weekends' here again ! enjoy them while you can. have a great weekend ahead pple =D

embrace in love. happy 1st month.
<3

mambo mania !

2008-05-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

love.

2008-05-23T05:25:00.001+08:00

love is not negotiable. everything else might be. but not love.

love is a guessing game. that's the whole beauty of it. there's no guranteed.

its like diving into a pool of water not knowing if its shallow or deep. and if its shallow yeaa you'll end up hurt. but if its deep ..

its like a leap of fate. its like throwing yourself out there without any guranteed. thats what life is about.

like those carnival games we all played before , some are hard to win , some are super easy to win. thats the difference between love and sex. sex is the game where everyone wins a little prize and no one goes home a loser. and love is the game that is really hard to win.

but if you do , you get to take home that life size stuffed toy teddy bear. it feels a whole lot better then taking home a shitty little plastic keychain.

how do you measure the love of a women or a man.

love is a gfit from up above. share love. give love. spread love. measure your life in love.

nothing's broken.

2008-05-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

woke up on sat morning feeling so damn tired. hahaha. maybe because of what took place the night before. hehehe ! xD

saturday's outing with sab. cam whore like whores. lol.

Couture with a twist. xD

more camwhoring in toliet.

the toliet's design made me feel like i was in Paris. no not that Paris.

after 20 mins i was still not done. hahahaa.

Headed down to club at night. Managed to drag uncle tan there too. hehe. felt so out of place. havent been there for like 1 mth plus. ooh well, fucked up night. boring night. left early for home to zzzzz.

sunday was bore ass boring. stayed home all day and night. treated myself to some online movies. hahah. titanic and epic movie. =D

Monday was equally boring. the only saving grace was probably meeting winston for dessert at coffee club. =)

Modern Lychee Tart. note the little hairs on the raspberry. LOL.

Turkish Bread Delight with 3 sauces. Yum.

Bacon and Cheese Quiche. Not so much my cup of tea. Winston loves it though. Got pork what ! haha.

Headed to my club's gym to burn the extra calories. Had dinner at the cafe and headed down to airport to pick my parents up. =D

i killed another lizard in my kitchen again. lol. this time with the fly squasher. muhahahaa!.

sometimes i feel like i'm just like a puppet. getting my strings pulled by people. im no fucking doormat nor am i a fucking puppet. im not gonna let myself be stepped all over. so much for being nice ehs. and this is what i always get. fuck you. you made me do this.

i wanna

2008-05-18T23:44:00.001+08:00

You set my soul at ease

Chased darkness out of view

Left your desperate spell on me

Say you feel it too

I know you do

I've got so much more to give

this can't die, I yearn to live

Pour yourself all over me

and I'll cherish every drop here on my knees

I wanna love you forever

and this is all I'm asking of you

ten thousand lifetimes together

is that so much for you to do?

'Cause from the moment that I saw your face

and felt the fire in your sweet embrace

I swear I knew.

I'm gonna to love you forever.

My mind fails to understand

what my heart tells me to do

and I'd give up all I have just to be with you

and now I do

I've always been taught to win

and I never thought I'd fall

be at the mercy of a man

I've never been

now I only want to be right where you are.

I wanna love you forever
and this is all I'm asking of you
ten thousand lifetimes together
is that so much for you to do?
'Cause from the moment that I saw your face
and felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew.
I'm gonna to love you forever.

In my life I learned that heaven never waits, noooo

let's take this now before its gone like yesterday

'Cause when I'm with you

there's no where else that I would ever wanna be, no

I'm breathing for the next second I can feel you lovin me

i wanna love you forever by Jessica Simpson.

jammed

2008-05-18T04:11:00.000+08:00

i've got so much i wanna say..

but i do not know where to start.

fuck this.

smack balls.

2008-05-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

i got my driving license !!!!! not.

mummy couldnt resist the temptation to take a photo of me in daddy's MG vintage.
hahaha.

Kacy's a big big girl now. almost 3 times when we first got her. hehe.

boring day. nothing much. looking forward to weekend. =) parrtyyy !!! xD

i miss you. <3

shake yr pom pom !

2008-05-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

aaaah finally i got my photoshop thinky done =) thanks to wayne darling ! hahahaa. i own you one BJ! xD ben and jerry's that is.

okok photo updates. =)

outing with sabby. =) i swear the lady at the back was trying to pose.

slacking at Mac. i was touching up when sabby took this shot. unglam can.

another unglam shot. i was trying to hide away actually. lol.

Camwhoring over dinner at Sun with Moon.

Sony Ericsson advertisment =D

others ...

Beyonce's fashion line , Dereon , for girls.

tsk tsk tsk... so young only dress until so diva.

holidays are getting seriously boring. too lazy to find job. stupid ritz have yet to call my hotline. argh !

well at least my trips are booked and paid for. hehe !

and all the best to those taking or having exams this week.
i got urge to go clubbing !! XD

hehe. daniel and nicole faster k. i wanna shake my pom pom.

ok i gone. headache's getting the better of me.

memories !

2008-05-12T04:01:00.000+08:00

i so happen to come across this vid. hahahaha its taken in foundation year. ok .. i guess only the pple in the video who know what was on.

yada

2008-05-10T11:13:00.000+08:00

im not blogging until i get my photoshop cd.

whats blogging without photoshop! argh.

photoshop cd pls ? anyone ? =D

like this

2008-04-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

a long and winding journey
i guess has come to an end.
all this months of drama , all the pain i've nailed
i went up , and i came crushing down
but i have no regrets at all.

everyone deserves to be happy. that includes me
let me not get in the way of anything.
let me not be a factor of pity
allow me i pray, to slowly drift away
im not sad , im not emo. and i wont think too much abt it.

because i wont cry that its over. i'll smile because it happened.

be happy. thats all that matters. =D

sexy can i ?

2008-04-29T14:59:00.000+08:00

damn visual merchandising report. made me lose sleep last night ! argh.
but gf !! .. you know i still love you laaaa. even though you kept disturbing my sleep, kept suaning me, kept asking me to do yr work for you, kept eating non stop, kept burping like no one's business and kept making noise. hahahahahaa. still my gf ! always laa. =D

overdued photo of some of my classmates.

dont bother looking , im not in the photo.

baaaah. time to start my sch work again. reassessment is such a bore ass shit !

goodbye miss chanel koo yun. you will be missed. take care and see you in end june. if i'm heading over that is. hahaha. <33333>

dont pretend to be something your not.

2008-04-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY ! =D

omma's birthday today. headed out for dinner at tony romas. dinner was great. as usual .. ate till i could hardly walk. seriously, i think i should go on a diet sooon.

felt like something was missing. i guess it was my brother's presence. haha.

anyways.. i caught this movie over the weekend. Notebook. honestly .. i thought i was a good movie. there were some parts or rather some lines that i felt had an impact on me. but then again .. things are not what it's used to be. so .. i dont think it matters anymore. ehs ?

reassessment date has been set. this coming fri. fuck siol. i better not screw up again this time. if not ... ha ! i can go bang the wall and die.

bangkok trip faster come ! im like dying to shop ! and play ! and be prince there. wahhaaha.

aww i miss foundation year in lasalle ! so much fun.

omgosh ! this pic is like years ago ! hahaa. aww i miss them all la. ok maybe not all but yeaa most. where the hell is fang now.. damn i miss u !!
and alicia too !!! i love this pose of yours la. its so ... alicia !! hang out soooooooooon. ask xiaohui also !

random-ness. this is what happens when you get too stress. lol. i miss my rebonded fring ! =/

aaaahh i miss mister bitchy humprey D. faster meet soon la you bitch ! and intro longbean ! hahaha. =DD

haircut this tues .. pls make me look good. for once ?

kbox this thurs with classmates ! weeeeeee...

reassessment thi fri ... fuck. -.- now what!

one 26 on sat ? hehehe.

ritz faster call me leh ! i wanna chocolate flowers and fruits everyday ! =D

ok im gone bye.

* save yr breath , i dont wish to listen *

touch my body too !!

2008-04-27T13:01:00.000+08:00

assessment was a major screw up! fuck.

like seriously, lasalle should change their blardy system ! and fire some lecturers too. i wonder why mister chairman left the school. ha ! now i wonder no more. grrrrrr....

die lasalle die !!

baaaaaaaaaaaah !!

random note : i wonder where's mas selamat now. hmmmmm...

before assessment was crazy. assessment day was dumb. after assessment was fucking awesome.

kristie got back from australia. met up with her and went shisha-ing.
it was all right. compared to smoking a normal cigg , it doesnt have that instant kick. but uh huh ! its 6 times more harmful than ciggs. =/ and we had 2 hrs of shisha-ing. * dies *

camwhoring at depression was fun.

PS. the clothings im wearing is not from the shop. haha. Depression is located at Far East. #04-41. check out their website at depression.com.sg =D

ok nothing much to blog about already. damn lazy also. hahaha. Omma's birthday tml. shall blog again tml then. =D

PS : FEED MY FETISH PLS ! =D

get well soon. =)

touch my body

2008-04-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

UPDATES SOON. I PROMISE !! =D

like no other

2008-04-10T02:20:00.000+08:00

been having weird dreams for the past few days. though it was only naps but it was scary enough to make me sit up in bed and weep.

i'm so fucking stressed up with assessment that im taking time off to blog this rubbish nonsense post which doesnt make sense. gosh i dont even know what i'm talking abt now. whatever.

die assessment die ! like seriously. i dont even know if i can make it to next year. so fucking no confidence at all.

alright back to projects now.

" lets keep the faith and let love lead the way "

cause its a feeling like no other and i want you to know. =)

stop

2008-04-08T14:59:00.000+08:00

sry for i have not been updating my blog.

its assessment period once again.

will be back on the 15th. =)

until then , take care everyone. enjoy the rest of yr holidays. and happy schooling for those who have already started school.

loves.

till the end

2008-03-20T14:19:00.000+08:00

leap years was a good show. =) old ehs ? took me so long to watch it. but heck. i'm glad i took that long to watch it.

the things we shared. the heart to heart talks we had. the comfort you gave me. what more can i ask for. =D

it was something , a kind of unspoken feeling , that sent chills down my spine. something that i've been waiting for way too long. something i knew was there. its beyond any words. its beyond anything else.

appreciate it lots. really.

lets do this again. this time, somewhere there will be no mosquitos. =)

"all these precious moment with you by my side. must be a gift from heaven. i dont know how i found you. im thankful that i had"

nothing more i can ask for.

love.

away

2008-03-18T08:00:00.000+08:00

why now. why not early on ? why wait till now to tell me what you had to say. why. if you really wanted to clear things up i supposed you wouldnt wait till ... lets see .. almost 2 mths later ? and what about all the things you did after the break up. going back to whoever and all. at that time it seem to be that you had made things crystal clear enough. and i was just doing what i think was best for myself. you hit where it hurts and you fooled me so bad. all the seriously fucked up things you did to me. you dont have to force yourself to be with me anymore why wouldnt you be happy. i wonder..

just be happy with the person you are with now. afterall ... love is just a mere 10 hrs away.

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i'm jammed. im feeling so vexed right now. i dont know what to do. or what to say anymore. i'm numb. so sick and tired of all these wild goose chase. ending up with nothing but feeling so fucked up. my heart feels so weary and heavy. enough is enough.

" you in my arms was the most comforting i've felt for so long. so vexed and afraid was my heart that i felt like pouring everything out. because it seems to me , your the only one i felt safe with " <3

sighs.

little raindrops

2008-03-14T08:33:00.000+08:00

raining raining raining. how many times have i mentioned this word for the past 3 days. my god ! =/

anyways nothing much to blog abt. just that i've been a good boy this week so far. haven skipped any lesson. =D

baaah. i have no idea whats this post for anyways. so yea. i'm gone =D

weekend faster come la ! i wanna party =D

rainy days make me feel emo.

" all the raindrops in the sky cant be compared with all the tears i've cried "

where've you go , i miss you so. seems like its been forever.

heart goes on

2008-03-11T06:45:00.000+08:00

another week another drama ! ok so another flew by once more. how time flies really ..

school's getting better i think ? just really happy that this term's theme is on celebrities! thank god. thats like right down my alley. gossips and scandals ... i like ! unlike last term ... mrt. booooorrrriiinnnngggg.

i should stop skipping lessons. =/

design theory essay was a bomb. i just really bomb my way through. like wtf ? design history is so pa-say ! nnnexxxtttt.....

and oh .. one thing i like abt going to school ?

TAU HUAY BREAK !!!! =DD i love i love.

TGIF. friday was the sex. okay not really. met up with robin nicole and gang. basically just sat our arses down at heeren spins from .. 5pm all the way to 11.30pm. * claps * and oh .. we played truth or dare. LOL. questions like what is yr prefered sex position were asked. interesting ? you bet ! lol. our dirty little secrets !

weee ! andy finally finished his BMT. finally POP! hahaa. like he would say .. " huat ah !! " lol.

saturday went down clubbing with the usuals. DRAMA night ! really. * tsk tsk tsk *

* andy n me *

here's a little msg to someone who needs a wake up call.

* if you wanna drink , pls learn to control yrself. getting drunk in club and offending people is not the way. yr frens had to even apologise on yr behalf. this is not the 1st time this has happened. why spoilt other pple's night with yr violent and crazy behaviour. you yourself know you get really angst and violent when your drunk or too high. pls learn to control yrself in the future. and not be a burden to yr friends. trust me .. its not easy controlling you at all. i know yr drinking probably because yr feeling upset over something. frustrated over something preharps. but getting drunk wont solve anything instead will create more problems. and you dont have to apologise at all to me. cause really.. its just too late to apologise now. nothing would change what has been said and done. *

okok so that was that. dont ask me anything else abt that night really.

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it happened 3 days ago. when i was on the bus on my way home from school that a familiar song started playing from my ipod. it brought back many memories from the past then.

"would you be there". everything just started rushing back to me. from when we first got to know each other. to the time we sat at east coast park chatting with each other till late at night. its was so pure. so gentle. as if i was floating all the while. heart felt talks and the things you shared. i'll never forget at all. just that moment in time. i wished everything would stop and the night never came.

and then i went on to play the song " wait for you " couldnt help but teared alittle. it got me thinking alot. " what ifs " kept poping up in my head. what if this .. and what if that .. what if i did this instead of that .. etc etc. but i know its all too late. memories would live forever. and that i will treasure. =)

" I'll be your cloud up in the sky, I'll be your shoulder when you cry, I hear your voices when you call me, I am your Angel, And when all hope is gone I'm here, No matter how far you are, I'm near, It makes no difference who you are, I am your Angel "

the truth never lies.

*allester*

scandalous ! hell ya !

2008-03-04T15:41:00.000+08:00

saturday was awesome ! went down clubbing again with the usuals =)

i'll let the photos do the talking ...

* me and robin *

* me and GF lisian *

* veron and robin *

* me and veron ! *

* robin , veron and me ! *

* me and jonny ! *

* jonny , louis and veron ! *

* veron , louis and me ! *

* veron and me ! * <3>

* robin and jonny ! *

* me and lisian ! *

* jonny and veron ! *

* robin , veron and me ! *

* robin and lisian ! *

* louis , jonny , lisian , robin and veron *<3>

* veron and me ! *

* veron , me and lisian ! *

* me going crazy *

* jonny and veron ! *

* me , veron and robin ! *

* me and lisian ! *<3>

* veron and me ! *<3

* veron and robin ! *

* veron and jonny ! *

* veron and me ! *

* robin and me ! *<3

* love the lips ! * LOL

* me and moon ! *

* me and yanhui ! *

* jeremy and me ! * =DD

great night ! great friday and sat i had. fun's gone and now it's back to school

fuck.

i got it from my mama !

2008-03-02T10:00:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeee !!! omfg. yesterday was the best day i had in ages ! all thanks to my darings ! robin nicole shirley daniel winston and lisian ! =D

so i had a super duper late bday celebration at fish and co. food was omg. none of us could finish our portion la !

and they made the staffs sing bday song for me. not only that. i had to stand on the chair as well. baaah.

* nicole with her swordfish collar. * it was bigger than her face

* ta glam moment of my life * baaah

* sweet ! *

headed down to zouk after that. happening laaaah.

omg la. we all partied like rock stars ! phuture music last night was fucking goood ! dance non stop until my legs got numb and i couldnt even stand straight. waking up this morning with a super manly voice ! lol.

* me and dannyboy =D *

* rock stars shirley daniel robin and lisian *

* same but with me lol *

weeee ! fucking fun laaaaa. i love you all so much ! you guys are the best ! =D

robin's cute little drawing ! hahaha love it sista ! and thank you all for the gift =D love it. i'm so gonna wear it later. =D

and how i can forget about joel. LOL. a gift from daniel ! thanks babe ! =D joel's doing well. sleeping under my pillow. LOL. =D

i had a great time last night la ! fucking awesome! heh. thank you all once again. muacks and hugs yo !

xoxo

" cause yr all i could ever ask for " =DD

once in a lifetime

2008-02-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

school just sucks really. hate it. lecturers getting on my nerves each time. irritating.

anyways , here's a video of one of my fave songs. so close by jon mclaughlin. HOT !!

so hot ! i wanna bring home ! hahah.

coffee with cousins was beautiful. =)

cause its all meant to be. =)

twist of fate

2008-02-28T05:45:00.000+08:00

you want my attention , here's your 30 secs of fame. very possibly the last you would get from me.

so you wanna go around telling people crap and lies about me. telling people about us and stuff. be my guest. cause i shall not be bothered by your own wishful stories. living in yr own little fantasy world.

let me make one thing clear. I was NEVER attached to you. how could i , when i never once loved you and never will either. check up your little dictionary the meaning of " never " before you go around telling people i'm your ex boyfriend.

and oh .. dont bother trying to be high profile really. cannot make it means cannot make it. but at least you tried. its okay .. we all meet failure in life sometimes too.

start yr stories again by all mean. maybe hollywood should award you " scriptwriter of the year ". ha . but heck .. not as if i would care. cause everything about you .. is just so insignificant to me. grow up and get a life.

just dont be surprise if karma comes along someday and bite yr arse. cause what goes around comes around.

30 sec's up. from now i shall not be bothered with anything you say.

god bless yr heart for the lies and deceptions.
response : " AMEN ! "

" no publicity is bad publicity " paris hilton

something like that

2008-02-26T20:20:00.000+08:00

hate school. hate lecturers. hate everything. its times like this when i start to question myself if i'm doing the right course. argh ! hate it all la.

graphics are so dead. i just wanna start on advertising and not graphic. argh !

maybe i should have gone fashion instead. baaaaaah.

anyways, was doing my condom packaging design and came across this. =)

bottomline ? if yr gonna be humping , at least put on something.

argh so stressed with school work and everything else.

might be clubbing on sat. yayaya i know .. told myself wont club till april. LOL. but hey i'm doing this for my

GF ! * RIGHT NOT GF !! ALL FOR YOU OK ! HAHAHA *

baccckkk to work now. =(

die work die ! so i shall be free again ! =D

" cause i know how i feel about you now "

xoxo

love ya'll.

HEAL THE WORLD PEOPLE !! make it a better place. start so by burning down all schools =D

what your words

2008-02-23T15:29:00.000+08:00

someone once said " you have to look hot to survive in the aj world "

than bitch you must have been long dead.

fuck off.

can you feel my pain

2008-02-20T15:58:00.000+08:00

it started off with just a sore throat on vday. 2 days later , i was down with fever. the following day , high fever at 39.4 . had injection. but fever still came and go.

and now .. i'm still having high fever. plus my throat is like fucking swollen. my right tonsils seem like it just exploded and ulcers started forming on the side of my throat. no .. not just one small dot. image one whole white patch. =(

cant even swollow now.

hurts like fuck !

sweating than shivering than sweating than shivering again. fever like machiam stock market. up and down. and up and down again. argh !!!!

thats not the worst is , i've got soooooooooooo many food craving now. yet knowing i cant have any of them. how can i , when i cant even swollow. ARGH

can you feel my pain !

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haven been attending sch due to sickness. staying at home all day and all night. feeling so croped up. feeling so emo. esp when i remisnise one month ago today.

yup. its been one month already. how time flies. i dont know how i'm feeling now. part of me have long accepted the fact its over. part of me has moved on. yet part of me knowing i'm still missing and part of me still feels that sharp pain.

it was painful. it was tough.

just when you thought you did the right decision of giving that second chance. you start to see a change. thinking that its gonna work out. but then everything went haywire. you start to lose faith. and you feel betrayed. cause you believed a change has occured. at the end of the day , your back to square one again.

sighs.

" all the raindrops in the sky tonight , cant be compared with all the pain and all the tears ive cried. but now i know , all the make believe , lock in this picture frame , is gonna stay behind with all the burning rage thats been tearing through my heart. It killing me slowly , with every beat i was falling apart. sometimes i give , sometimes you take , sometimes you bend and sometimes you break me down. sometimes i stick around , trying to change you , make you someone that you'll never be. and sometimes i leave. All this time i've spent staring at the door, I never had the strength to pack my bags and leave before but now i'm done lying to myself when its clear your not that one "

" RESCUE .. ME "

hope i get well soon enough. argh

i miss you tsenre

with much love.

another year another drama

2008-02-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

BDAY !! =DD omg i'm like 19 yrs old. hahah. but honestly i feel wiser and more mature now. Knowing that this is my last year with a figure " 1 ". will hit the big 20 one year from now. LOL.

okok. 18th has been a well.. good and not so good year. Went through so much , like more that i've ever been through. Ups and downs , lefts and rights. Met some really great pple and yet met some arseholes. LOL. but heck .. good year overall i would think. =)

so yada yada yada .. skipped school today cause was having a bad headache. Called the clinic to get MC. Than slept through till 3pm? when was woken up by the consistent ringing of my phone. lol.

Went to city hall met wins. Had dinner at olio cafe suntec...

Headed down to town soon after. Walked around and went to bakerzin for more food. Thank god i have high metabolism rate if not i would be like Queen Latifah now. * no offence to her. i love her * =)

too lazy to explain each one. whatever la .. they all just tasted so damn good. haha

anyways ...

just wanna say " THANK YOU EVERYONE " for jamming my phone with your birthday wishes. =) its much appreciated. =)) love ya byotches. sry wasnt able to reply every single one of you.

another year another drama. Hope my 19th year on this earth will be a good one. =) and boy .. things are looking fine so far. hahaha.

actually i have something to bitch about. but since its my bday i shall be nice. =D

and oh .. thank you all for yr presents , gifts , smses , calls , emails , notes , friendster comments yada yada yada. =D

Special thank you to kris ! for your gorgeous roses =) love it. all the way from australia. heheh.

and to josh ! for that ... hahahaha. nvm i shall not say =DD

weee... mummy and daddy will be back tml =) miss them so much. hahaa. kinda ?

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happy birthday to whom ever that shares the same bday as me=)

and oh for those who treats love as a game and toy. fuck you.

i rest my case.

NIGHTS ALL !

xoxo

" i miss you. badly "

so close

2008-02-15T15:12:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day everyone. =)

i supposed everyone had a great valentines ? yes ? haha well.. i did. =)

thank you for the chocolates and roses. x)

" tonight .. i celebrate my love for you "

sweet aroma

2008-02-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

weee ! i'm back to blogging again.

Had to close down my previous blog as i had too many lovey dovey posts in it. LOL. see also get pek chek la. Might as well just close it down. wahhaha.

kk. been busy recently with school works. Haven been reading anyone's blog. Not even yours. Trust me. LOL.

I guess its time for another chapter of my life to unfold. A new begining a whole new perpective. I'm so over the old. Its like last season's Prada. Old and out. Looking forward to new things that are about to happen. =)

All right , hope everyone had a good CNY. yes yes ? hahaha. I had a good CNY i guess. except for the part where my brother had to leave for australia to study. And my parents went over too. *emos*

CNY CNY CNY ! food food food! ang bao ang bao ang bao !

hahaha. alrite i shall stop talking and let the photos speak for themselves. =)

Oookkkkaay ! thats all the photos i'm gonna show. hahaa.

well.. lets see. the past 3 weeks or so has been eventful to say the least. hahaa. gotta spent some time with myself and i come to realise that i'm sooooooooo much happier without someone in my life.

another lesson learnt i would say. twice bitten thirce shy now.

you know what you were doing to me. yet i was too blind to see. you hit where it hurts and you fooled me so bad.

every season comes around with new collections. last season's goods are now old and out. like dust off your shoulders. =)

and oh .. school's been hell ! so much work to do and complete. assessment's coming ! arrgghhh. but heck .. when april comes along .. 4 months break will begin =)) thailand and australia .. here i come ! =D

not gonna be clubbing anytime soon for at least .. 2 mths. or until after my assessments. its time for me to settle down. hehe.

and oh .. i wont be putting any tag board or whatever .dont bother asking me to. =)

baccckk to work again.

oh ya .. happy valentines everyone. =)

" just the two of us will do " =D

test test

2008-02-11T17:25:00.000+08:00

testing 1 2 ..